Can you keep a secret?

I have not often shared my long term vision on dreams on this blog. I’ve actually not shared them often to anyone. Sometimes those dreams seem so big, and far away, I forget about them for a while, as I live away the present. However, recently I have realised the future is coming! And perhaps coming up quicker than I thought.

In the past, God has left things ‘til the very last minute with me. Revealing His plans just before I had to live them out. It was exciting, fast paced and incredibly faith strengthening as He poured out provision and confirmation that I was walking in His path.

Now, it seems that the future is coming, my vision is growing and God is whispering in my ear. I know that He is gently calling me back to Scotland, and I can sense that He is being gracious with time and letting it sink in, that maybe I will not be back in Africa (for an extended stay) for some time. It hurts my heart to think of leaving without knowing when I’ll be back, but I have the same faith I had two years ago, when I last left Rwanda, that my work here is not finished. Seasons change, and so does my walk with God. I am happier to adventure down a river with twists and turns than to stand in a stagnant pond with nothing new approaching me.

I have grown so greatly in the last year. I can feel a new attitude and perspective towards life has taken root and is being strengthened with each new situation I face. In the past few months, I have been blessed to live alongside individuals and families with beautiful visions for the future. As people share their dreams, I feel swept away too, and find myself imagining being part of them. Most of these visions exist outside of YWAM which is more signal that my time here is also coming to an end. These visions are SO “of God” and I pray that as steps are taken towards them, He would breathe His life upon them.

I know that God has given me my own personal desires and vision, which He has been adding to over the last few months. Signs of shared visions and hopes for the future have encouraged me to keep pressing into His plan. One of the main things I feel now, is that I will not be alone in my future. God is already preparing someone to do life with me. And for me to do life with him. I’m praying now for that guy, that his heart would be like mine, and we can share God’s perfect plan together. This is the surprise! I actually do not have a desire to be married right now, honestly! So then, I’m asking God what He is up to. I can only trust Him and begin to grasp the slightest understanding of how He works,

Right now, it is only a whisper, a rumour of what is to come. So I am quietly responding and obeying the One who knows me and knows what is to come.